Well, the first week of school is now complete.
And I have to say, I'm exhausted.
But not in a bad way :)
The students didn't start until Wednesday, so I only spent three actual days with them, but I have to say I have found something to love about each class. I have another English class full of gamers and lovers of epic movies (Miss S remains at least somewhat relevant). I have a Social Studies class of kids eager to learn and please and embrace all that I tell them (talk about a scary amount of power). I have a Cooking class that is still warming up to me but is starting to appreciate me and who I definitely appreciate back (they are going to be my challenging class, but not because of the students... because I have to teach cooking!). And I have a History class that is engaged and so ready to discuss and question.
And I feel wholly inadequate!
But I am hoping that is just part of being a teacher. I would be scared if I felt like I had everything figured out, because I know I never will. And besides, if I had everything figured out I wouldn't have to be at the school before 6am. What would I do with myself!
I wish I had some quirky, zany stories to share, but I'm afraid I don't. All I can do is tell you that when I mentioned Lord of the Rings, I had a room full of students light up, their eyes going huge. When I told a student to tell me more about the video games they play, and then proceeded to ask him questions about the style of game, his eyes held a mixture of awe, shock, and yes, even a little respect.
Of course all of this doesn`t mean I am super teacher.
I have had a couple of breakdowns this week.
Tuesday I just felt overwhelmed. It was as if I would never get done everything that I needed to get done. And I hate that feeling.
Wednesday I met my kids. I went home. And then the adrenaline wore off and I realized something.
I'm in new territory. I'm not living somewhere I, or someone in my family, has lived before. I'm not surrounded by numerous friends that I can call up at a moment's notice. I'm still four provinces away from Mr. Charming.
I felt utterly alone.
And I know that I'm not. I have made friends here and already have promises of social gatherings within the week (Miss S may actually develop a life... or at least minor one). I know I have people I can talk to.
There has just been a lot of change, and while it is good change, it still requires some adjusting.
And some trusting. This was a pretty big door that was opened to me, and was a pretty big decision on my part to move here.
Now I just need to continue to trust that I am not alone in this. That even at my loneliest, there is One who never leaves.
I can hardly wait to see what next week brings!
And I have to say, I'm exhausted.
But not in a bad way :)
The students didn't start until Wednesday, so I only spent three actual days with them, but I have to say I have found something to love about each class. I have another English class full of gamers and lovers of epic movies (Miss S remains at least somewhat relevant). I have a Social Studies class of kids eager to learn and please and embrace all that I tell them (talk about a scary amount of power). I have a Cooking class that is still warming up to me but is starting to appreciate me and who I definitely appreciate back (they are going to be my challenging class, but not because of the students... because I have to teach cooking!). And I have a History class that is engaged and so ready to discuss and question.
And I feel wholly inadequate!
But I am hoping that is just part of being a teacher. I would be scared if I felt like I had everything figured out, because I know I never will. And besides, if I had everything figured out I wouldn't have to be at the school before 6am. What would I do with myself!
I wish I had some quirky, zany stories to share, but I'm afraid I don't. All I can do is tell you that when I mentioned Lord of the Rings, I had a room full of students light up, their eyes going huge. When I told a student to tell me more about the video games they play, and then proceeded to ask him questions about the style of game, his eyes held a mixture of awe, shock, and yes, even a little respect.
Of course all of this doesn`t mean I am super teacher.
I have had a couple of breakdowns this week.
Tuesday I just felt overwhelmed. It was as if I would never get done everything that I needed to get done. And I hate that feeling.
Wednesday I met my kids. I went home. And then the adrenaline wore off and I realized something.
I'm in new territory. I'm not living somewhere I, or someone in my family, has lived before. I'm not surrounded by numerous friends that I can call up at a moment's notice. I'm still four provinces away from Mr. Charming.
I felt utterly alone.
And I know that I'm not. I have made friends here and already have promises of social gatherings within the week (Miss S may actually develop a life... or at least minor one). I know I have people I can talk to.
There has just been a lot of change, and while it is good change, it still requires some adjusting.
And some trusting. This was a pretty big door that was opened to me, and was a pretty big decision on my part to move here.
Now I just need to continue to trust that I am not alone in this. That even at my loneliest, there is One who never leaves.
I can hardly wait to see what next week brings!
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